Sunday, March 29, 2009,12:27 AM
The bond is officially broken, today.
Some of the P.P.I.S volunteers, had volunteered to become a part of the (OYG), Olympic Youth Games for 2009. The first meeting was today. It supposed to start at 8.30am but in the end it started at roughly a few minutes past 9.00am. Which was because some of the volunteers had arrived late. That includes us of course. *laughs* with *grins*
The first part was just a brief-through about the OYG this year and explaining on what us volunteers should and should not do. The lecture was not too draggy, as the lecturer engages us on the straight-to-point basis. Break for around 45mins and i dissappeared somewhere to do something, *wink2* but forgot to tell them where i was going, which was only one floor down. By the time i was done and went back up, they dissappeared! *sob2* And luckily bump into Zul and sat at a table together as both of us can't find them. By the time we were done eating, we had found them at the back. *grin sheepishly* The second part was a lecturer from ITE Clementi. His lecture uh, too draggy, too dramatic and too elaborate! *whine* And it doesn't even help that i was shivering uncontrollably. Forget to drink my caffeine. I even lost my 10 bucks when i was running to catch a bus in the morning. Sheesh. Can't my day get any worst?
Well, guess what? It did. He was there, obviously, like the rest of us. He doesn't even acknowledge my presence. Not even a simple,
'hello'. *smile wryly* Just idly treat me like i was not there.
You promise. You promise! But look what had happened. You broke it. I apologised so many times when we met on the first three weeks, for not msging and calling for a month. I explained fully to you. You said you understand. And as a result i try to contact you a few weeks later after having enough courage to do so. But you push me away with that short simple sentence. From then on, the more i want to try to reconcile our friendship, the more you're implying that you don't want anything to do with me anymore. I guess you wanted our bond to be broken after all. You even avoid me everytime i was there. Guess what, you don't have to worry about that anymore.
I will be the one to avoid you. *sigh* From now on, today, we are officially over.
Your kiss on my head, your smile on your face, your mindset of thinking. You're sunlight a light in my eyes. I miss your breath on my neck when we hug. When we whisper in the night on the beach.
I Didn't wanna want you. I Didn't wanna need you so bad. I Didn't wanna wake up. And find that I was falling so fast. I Didn't wanna need you. I Didn't wanna need anyone. Now look what you've done.*sigh* When we are close, i become too dependant on him. Too dependant on him to make me smile or even laugh. He can easily understands me. He can even read me like an open book. Now when it is over, the pain of losing a very, very close friend is very overwhelming.
Too painful. Sheesh. And now i sounded like i have feelings for him or something. *grumble* Or did i? *more grumbling*
Argghh! Nonono! It's wrong! It's wrong! It's wrong! Sheesh!
As IF he does have feelings for me, for goodness sake! You're too distracting!
Grrr. *growls angrily* Im tired of playing hide and seek again and again. I've had enough of this mess.
You know what, just,
Stay away from me. Stay away from me as far as you can. As far as possible.Labels: *sigh* Honestly, what the hell did i just say.
