Tuesday, April 7, 2009,11:25 PM
Cry.
It was just a few minutes ago. Fighting. All hell break lose. Words that are meant not to hear, was heard. My family. Is falling apart. Is
really falling apart. One keeps blaming the other. I can't take it. It has almost been a month. I didn't even realise how i manage to get through it all. Maybe due to always going out and be with my friends to avoid the tension by having less time with them. I just came to realise i became distant. But not to the extent until ignoring my friends. Sheesh. They are the best. And my medicine. *smile* They are the best distraction from all the fighting at home. But why must i be the target. Why must i always be the victim. It's just, too much for me.
Too much.I want to cry. I want to cry until no tears are left behind. I want to shout. I want to shout until my voice is hoarse. Until my lungs hurt that i can't stand it. But, i can't.
He told me (while we are still close though) that crying doesn't solve anything, and it won't change a single thing. And he is damn right. But i want to.
I want to. The pressure is too much for me to handle. I want to cry. But no one is beside me.
Labels: How much could i take?
