Friday, September 4, 2009,6:50 AM
Heartless.
Leaving me speechless after finding out was one thing. But vomitting after that? I didn't even expect it. Never felt overpowering emotions with so much force that resulted me in throwing up my last night's food content.
Just 4 hours ago he told me. And the message kept replaying in my mind like thousands of buzzing bees swarming. Yes, im angry. Angry till the point that i don't even know what to say. *sigh* But honestly speaking, i don't even have the heart to scold him. I would not know what to say. I mean, i have no right whatsoever. It
IS his life, not mine. And also the fact that i still have feelings for him.
Realising that he did not reply to my messages, make me realise that i am cruel. To the point where i could be called,
HEARTLESS. I guess i realised a little too late of what Nashri actually means."You always cared about yourself. You never think of the other's feelings. You always want everything to follow your way. You never THINK!"Come to think of it, i think it is actually true. I never think of what he might feel. I just shoot blindly towards him to the point that i never thought of the consequences. I didn't think that just expressing what you felt to the other person held so many consequences. So many flaws. That is why i should keep eveything bottled up like i always do right? This time, it is a definite right.
*sigh* What have i done?
Sky, im sorie.Labels: How could i.
